Raiin Monkey

Recent Posts

Monday, 15 October 2018

Sunshine Blogger Award

Hey guys! Well, my aim this month was to be more productive and I have actually been very motivated to get stuff done, just apparently not on my blog XD (I'm the worse blogger!). So far this month, I have been focusing all my energy (which is not a lot to be honest, Seasonal Affective Disorder is not fun!) on my toy photography hobby. Over on my Instagram that's dedicated entirely to my love of toys and collectable vinyl figures, I have been taking part in two daily challenges, one of them has prompts for each day which is great (Oh, and I just started joining in with a new one today!). Its been very fun! I've also been dealing with the typical #WriterProblems of ignoring the piece I'm supposed to be working on, indulging my overactive imagination, and writing new stories, haha! It's both enjoyable and frustrating- I'd just like to finish a 'project' for once! 

So anyhow, today I'm focusing on my blog (and my story :D because I just want to exist in a fantasy realm as much as possible) and finally answering the tag post that the awesome Kim over at Chimmyville tagged me in. Be sure to check out her blog & have a read of her answers :) Thankyou for the tag lovely I hope you all enjoy reading! 

Sunshine Blogger Award

I can't seem to find who the original creator of the Sunshine Blogger Award was, but I absolutely love that it's given from blogger to blogger and is a celebration of bloggers who are inspiring, motivational or positive :) It's a lovely message and an awesome way to spread the love! Here are the rules for the Sunshine Blogger Award: 

Thank the blogger who nominated you & link back to their blog,
Answer the 11 questions the blogger asked you,
Nominate 11 bloggers to receive the award & ask them 11 questions,
And finally, make sure to list the rules and display the Sunshine Blogger Award logo on your post and/or your blog. 

Here are my answers to Kim's questions... 

1. What keeps you motivated?

I actually struggle a lot with motivating myself, a very frustrating symptom of depression, which is something that I struggle with. Probably not a very positive way to start my post, but to be honest I haven't found much that keeps me motivated! Well, other than to do things that I really love to do :) If I enjoy it, then I'm more likely to be motivated to do it because it makes me feel good. This year I've been working on not forcing myself to do things and putting too much pressure on myself. I've been trying to just go with the flow and do things whenever I get a random burst of motivation! Sorry guys, I know this isn't very helpful advice... but just do things that make you happy, and don't force things! Oh and make to-do lists, they do actually help me! Remember to break your tasks up into smaller, more manageable ones so that they won't be as much of a challenge to complete. Baby steps are key when you're feeling unmotivated in my opinion! 

2. If you could travel anywhere in the world (money is no object here), where would you go and why? 

I would most definitely travel to Japan. I have wanted to go ever since I was in my early teens and it would just be a dream come true! :) I am determined to get there some day! Not only does it look like such a beautiful place with its gorgeous natural scenery and interesting culture and architecture, it's also rich in history and fascinating traditions. Plus it's just the perfect place for nerds :p 

3. What is your favourite season and why?

My favourite season is Autumn, for so many reasons. I love the seasonal changes, the colourful leaves are just gorgeous and I adore that the blaring sunshine and the heat goes away because I'm not a fan of it at all! It's nice to experience a few sunny days but I much prefer autumnal weather, when it's not too hot and not freezing cold yet. It's also the time of year in which both my birthday and my favourite holiday fall (haha, get it! :D). Halloween is wonderful and I look forward to it so much! It's super fun being able to dress up and also decorate my bedroom with ALL THE SPOOKY THINGS! (Although my bedroom has spooky things in it all year round; well spooky to some, beautiful to me!). You can check out what else I love about Autumn here, on the first blog post I ever wrote back in 2015 :O 

4. List your five favourite movies and why they're your favourites.

Disney's The Lion King 2 (and the first movie too of course)
- Because the soundtrack is AMAZING, it's super nostalgic to me and makes me feel happy whenever I watch it, Scar is my favourite Disney villain, I absolutely love Kovu's and Zira's characters from LK 2 and oh my gosh, the sassy zebra & antelope that sing 'Not One of Us' :D they are fabulous! 

Little Shop of Horrors 
- This is an outstanding musical! It was the first ever musical that I watched when I was around six years old and I just fell in love with musicals from then on :) As a fan of horror, I love that this musical has a horror theme and Audrey 2 is fantastic! The soundtrack is epic and I find myself randomly bursting into song all the time with them. 

Princess Mononoke
- It's actually so tough for me to choose my absolute favourite Studio Ghibli movie because they are all so wonderful, but I think it's gonna have to be Princess Mononoke. One of the reasons why I love Studio Ghibli movies so much is their attention to detail when it comes to their nature animation. It looks so beautiful, and Princess Mononoke has a lot of it! I love the mythology theme of the movie and all of the gorgeous creatures it in. I also love Princess Mononoke herself because she's epic! Are you a fan of Ghibli movies guys? Let me know your favourite in the comments :) 

Pan's Labyrinth
- I love Guillermo del Toro's movies, they are fantastic, especially Pan's Labyrinth :) It's basically a fairytale for adults with a sinister story and spooky legendary creatures. I'm a fan of both fairytales and horrors, and this is the perfect combination of the two. I just love it! I also really like watching movies in other languages, and this one is in Spanish. If you haven't seen it, you need to! 

The Devils Rejects 
- I couldn't not include a horror movie on here and although I actually have three top horror movies, I find it hard to rank them so I just picked one of them at random to include on this list. I really enjoy movies from Rob Zombie, and this is my favourite horror he's done. It's about a family of serial killers and I like that a lot of the story is told from their point of view, VS the 'good guys' involved. I don't want to give away too many spoilers if you haven't watched it so I can't explain some of the reasons why I love it, but one thing I can say is that there are some really funny lines in it, that never fail to make me laugh :D 

5. List your five favourite TV shows and why they're your favourites. 

Game of Thrones
- I loved the books, it's got the perfect mix of fantasy and history, lots of strong female characters, sorcery, lots of wit and humour so it always makes me laugh, DRAGONS! Also, I have it to thank for bringing Jason Momoa into my life! Khal Drogo though *heart eyes*

- Lots of historical accuracy because it's produced by the History Channel, I didn't know much about Viking history from the point of view of the Vikings themselves before watching the show so I found it very interesting learning all about them, I love Norse mythology, lots of gorgeous guys, epic battle scenes, Lagertha (she's amazing!), shield-maidens (if you didn't know, the Vikings had female warriors and they were badass)! 

The Handmaid's Tale
- I really enjoy the dystopian genre, the lead is a really relatable and strong female character, the whole story revolves around the life of women living under a strict, religious regime that oppresses and controls them and there are so many badass characters who are fighting for their lives and trying to escape so it's a very compelling watch :) The book by Margaret Atwood that it's adapted from is really good too! 

The Walking Dead
- Daryl Dixon and other intricate, interesting characters, the zombies look incredible and the makeup artists who bring them to life are so so talented, it's another dystopian/apocalyptic themed show that also has a lot of horror elements to it, so many great storylines and relationships that make you really invested in the characters, epic villains (especially Negan!), did I mention Daryl Dixon? Because he's fantastic! :P 

The OA
- This is a brilliant tv show written by Brit Marling, who is also an amazing actress (who happens to star in this show too)! It's a Netflix series and I cannot recommend it enough :) It's a mix of several genres that mesh so well together to create a complex, fascinating tale. It is one of the many shows that has helped me get more and more interested in Sci-fi, and its' one of those shows that really gets you thinking and questioning things. Plus, Jason Isaacs is in it and he's one of my favourite actors, and he's not so bad to look at either ;) 

Sunshine Blogger Award

6. What are you reading at the moment? 

I've not long finished reading the Harry Potter novels and the urge to read them all over again is real, but I'm currently writing a fanfiction branching off the stories so I don't want to distract myself away from my own storyline by reading the books again! :D I'm going to get myself a copy of the new book, Vox by Christina Dalcher (check out my awesome friend Estelle's review all about it here) as soon as I can spare the cash :) I also think it's about time that I read the Lord of Rings trilogy & The Hobbit, so I need to pick up books those too! 

7. Why do you blog?

I blog for so many reasons, but I originally started my blog to give myself a creative outlet and to help encourage myself to focus on something, to distract myself away from the hard things I was experiencing in my life. My mental health got really bad when I was in my final year at university and after I graduated, I was still in a really dark place so I was in desperate need of my own little happy place, somewhere to take myself away from all the stuff I was dealing with on a daily basis. So, I made my blog as a space for me to talk about all of the things that I loved! Now three years later, I am still dealing with the struggles my mental health conditions bring and so my blog is still somewhere I can go to remind myself of all the good things in life. It's been a tough year for me, and I haven't been able to blog as much as I've wanted to, but it's still awesome being able to look back on all the positive things that have happened in my life over the last few years via my blog :) 

8. If you could go back in time, which period of history would you visit and why?

As a history geek, this question was such a challenge to answer! I've been sitting here for like 10 minutes trying to settle on just one :D My favourite historical periods/civilisations were the Vikings, the Ancient Egyptians, the Native Americans and the Victorians. I really like the Middle Ages too. I could list several more XD But I think I'm gonna have to go with Ancient Egypt as my final answer. It has been the historical time period that I have been fascinated with for the longest. I was only around 7 or 8 when I become really interested in history and I have the Egyptians to thank for that :) I just love everything about their history: the religions and all the ceremonies and deities that came with them, the architecture, the traditions and culture. It would be incredible to see it all with my own eyes! *starts drawing up plans to make a time machine*… HA I won't get far with my maths skills XD

9. You're holding a dinner party, which five fictional characters would you invite and why? 

I would invite Tyrion Lannister from The Song of Ice & Fire/Game of Thrones, Luna Lovegood from Harry Potter, Newt Scamander from Fantastic Beasts, Hannibal Lecturer from the TV series, Hannibal, and Jason Momoa in any fictional form he wants XD Tyrion because he's hilarious and witty af, so he'd make the dinner party so entertaining. Luna because she's wonderful and quirky and I'd love to have conversation with her about creatures and all things mythical. I'd invite Newt for similar reasons, and he'd be able to share stories of his adventures in far-off lands and about all the creatures he's encountered along the way! It probably sounds weird that I would invite Hannibal :D but the guy is so intelligent and I think he'd talk about some very interesting things. I'm a sucker for deep conversation. And finally, why Jason? Because this dream banquet wouldn't be complete without some eye-candy :p 

10. Would you spend £10,000 on a deposit for a house or your dream wedding?

I'm a single pringle right now, but to be honest I'd rather have a cute, little, inexpensive wedding to get the chance to buy a beautiful house in the countryside with land for all my dream pets any day! 

11. What is your dream car? 

I am not really up to date with popular car models and makes, and I don't drive, but I like big trucks and I cannot lie :p If it looks like a serial killer in a horror movie would drive it, I'll take it XD I don't even know why! #HorrorObsessed

Now, here are my 11 questions for all of the wonderful bloggers I've tagged to answer :)

1. What's your favourite mythical creature?
2. Do you collect anything? If so what?
3. If you could dress up as anything for Halloween (with no cost restrictions in mind), what would you dress as?
4. What are your top 5 songs right now?
5. Share a fond memory from your childhood, and why it's meaningful to you :) 
6. What's your favourite species of bird? (hahaha I know this is super random, but I was just having a conversation about birds and was compelled to ask! :D) 
7. Imagine you could be a witch or wizard for a day, what spell would you most like to cast first? Tell us why.
8. Do you have a go-to Autumnal make up product?
9. Spooky or Spoopy? (or both like me!)? 
10. What's something that you love the texture of? (Apologies for the random questions guys, I'm not very good at this!) 
11. Are you a fan of Sci-fi? If so, do you have a favourite movie and/or TV show?

I nominate... 


Thankyou for reading! I know it was a super long post to get through :D 

I hope you have a lovely week everyone!


I'd love to hear your answers to any of the questions I've answered in today's post,
or to any of my 11 questions so please feel free to share those in the comments :) 


Monday, 8 October 2018

Pusheen Box 2018 Spring Edition | Review

Hi everyone! This post has been a ridiculously long time coming! This month (well and in the last week of September too), I have been more productive than I have been in what feels like forever now! A week ago today, it was my birthday and I turned 26! Wow, I really don't feel 26 but does anyone ever feel their age!? It seems like the last ten years have just flown by! But before I get carried away talking about how much has happened over these years, I'll tell you how I spent my birthday, haha! I went for a carvery meal with my mom, and it was delicious :) I received such wonderful gifts from my loved ones, and I'll be blogging all about them some time next week, so keep an eye out for that if you're curious to see what I got! My best friend & I were born only nine days apart, (and she likes to remind me that she's older than me ;p), and for several years now, we've had a joint birthday celebration. We usually always go for a meal, and on Thursday we decided to go to Brewers Fayre because we had a coupon for an amazing 2 for 1 deal on main meals! We spent under £20 each and each got a main course, a dessert, refill drinks, and we even decided to get a cheeky second dessert to share just before we left :D I regret nothing! It was scrumptious. Today, I am off out to see the new Venom movie and oh my gosh, I am so EXCITED! 

Anyhow, going out feels like it has given me the push that I needed to get my life back on track and I am determined to make October a productive month! :) I feel like I say this every month but something just feels different this time, and I hope that this feeling lasts! Right now, I am feeling motivated today and I am determined to get as much done as I can whilst I'm in this mindset... which means finally sharing my Spring Pusheen Box with you all! 

Quite a while ago now, after I'd just received this year's Summer Edition of the Pusheen subscription box, I shared a poll on a few of my social media accounts asking you guys whether I should still share a post all about the Spring Box, or just move onto blogging about the Summer one. However, most of the voters opted for me to do posts about both of the boxes, and so it's about time that I got this done! Please forgive my delay everyone, I'm the worst blogger lately! Hopefully the cuteness overload that you are going to get from this post will make up for it :D Enjoy! 

Pusheen Box Spring 2018

First of all, I'd just like to talk about how much I appreciate the design that goes into each of the Pusheen Boxes. They always decorate the box in a way that reflects the theme that you are going to find inside, which I just love! You don't usually find this with other subscription boxes, where the company/creator normally send you the same design of box each time, whether it's a monthly box or a quarterly one like the Pusheen Box. I also like that the Pusheen Box comes covered in a plastic wrap so it's less likely to get scratched and ruin the pretty design, although sometimes this does still happen but that's not really the fault of Pusheen Box themselves. 

Anyhow, if you've never heard of the Pusheen Box before, it's an amazing seasonal subscription box put together by CultureFly. It seems pretty pricey when you are paying $60 for a subscription box (plus shipping), but when you bare in mind that monthly subscription boxes are usually around £25 each, then you'll realise that the Pusheen Box is actually a really good value for money. I much prefer paying this much for a big box of great quality, useful items than £15-25 each month for other kinds of subscription box that often contain a few awesome things and then lots of, usually really random, filler items. Even when the items in the Pusheen Box haven't really been something that I would choose to buy individually, they have still all been useful and I have ended up using them anyway, when I didn't think I would! So without further ado, let's get to what was inside the Spring 2018 box!!

Pusheen Box Spring 2018

Ta-da! Just look at this colour scheme!! It's gorgeous, and so are all of the items themselves! The Spring edition Pusheen Box includes ten fantastic items, including the monthly vinyl figure, which is always designed to match the overall theme of the box. This time, the theme is Celebration and that's because this box marks the 10th box to be sent out to subscribers! They've added a celebratory pin badge to the box for the special occasion, and as a collector of pins, I think that's awesome!! Keep reading for a closer look at all of this lovely Pusheen merch :) What's your first impression of the contents? 

Pusheen Box Spring 2018

Since the 10th box celebration pin encompasses the theme of this addition of the Pusheen Box, I thought it only right to talk about it first. As a pin collector, I'm pretty biased when it comes to pin badges, especially when I am sent them as surprises! I am always going to love receiving adorable, top quality pins to add to my ever-growing collection, and this one is so pretty! I'm actually not a big fan of the colour gold, and if it wasn't for the fact that a) it's a pin, and b) it's got Pusheen on it, I probably wouldn't like it much based on the fact that it's gold. However, how can anyone dislike this pin!? This balloon theme just makes me think of Disney's UP, which is a wonderful movie and so I can overlook the fact that it's gold. I don't know why I don't like gold that much! Are you a fan of the colour yourself? How about the pin? You know what else this pin makes me think of, those gold star stickers of achievement, that you would get on your work in primary school! Well done Pusheen box, it's 10 gold stars for you! 

Pusheen Box Spring 2018

Awwww, isn't Pusheen just so adorable!? I love how chubby she is! I really love seeing this design of her too, were she's sitting as a ball of fluff with her feet tucked up underneath her. Too cute! I'm super happy that they've chosen this design for these two items above: a tape dispenser and a mouse pad! Even though these items both don't really fit in with the theme of the box, I still love them because they are practical items that I will definitely use! One of my favourite things about the Pusheen Box is that even the 'filler' items are great quality and always something that I'm going to get some use out of! 

I have been after a mouse pad for a while now, to use on my new desk (when I eventually finish decorating, it's taking me months and months to get around to doing it, and my desk is currently living in the hallway in a huge flatpack box which is taking up all the space, along with several other Ikea boxes, oops!). What I love about this one is how soft and squishy it is, and that unlike other mouse pads I've had in the past, the top isn't a hard plastic material, that is raised enough off of the desktop to eventually make my wrist ache when I've been using my computer for a few hours. This mouse pad is pretty much flat, and it's going to look adorable sitting on my desk :) 

If you've been following my blog for a while now, you'll know that I'm pretty stationery obsessed, and so you can imagine how much I really like this tape dispenser! I'm yet to own a cute tape dispenser, so I'm very glad to have received this item. I've also been on the look out for a tape dispenser for while, because I am not a fan of handling sellotape (obsessive compulsive disorder problems >.<) and using one will mean that I won't have to touch the sticky side of the tape much. What I like most about this item is the simplicity of the design; that's why I love Pusheen so much in general because the illustration/design of her character is very simple and that's just something I find appealing. There's no busy elements to distract away from this sweet little grey tabby cat. Another thing that I think is great about this tape dispenser is it's size. Most of the tape dispensers I've had when I was younger were mini ones that only fit in something the size of a roll of washi tape. This one looks like it will fit a full size sellotape in it. 

Pusheen Box Spring 2018

Here's a close up of the gorgeous pouch, because I wanted to show you guys the pretty pusheen zip charm (or whatever they are called)! Even though gold is not really my thing, I can't deny that it goes so well with the pink, gold and grey, and these three colours are very popular at the moment. You can't browse through Pinterest without spotting some homeware or stationery in this colour combo, and that's because they look so lovely together! Something that I like about this pencil pouch is that it's colour is something a little bit different compared to the overall aqua/turquoise colour scheme of the rest of the box. I mean, I know that gold is also very prominent throughout the contents, but pink isn't and I like the variety :) Colours aside, I love this item! I am always in need of cases like these to store stationery or make-up bits in, and the shape and length of this Pusheen pouch makes me think it would be great for make-up brushes. What would you use it for? Oh, and I like that the zip doesn't just run along the top of the pouch, but also a little down one side which makes it easier to get things in and out of it. 

Pusheen Box Spring 2018

Pusheen Box Spring 2018

JUST LOOK HOW BEAUTIFUL THIS LETTER SET IS!? I literally squeeeeed when I spotted this item whilst unboxing my Spring Pusheen Box! I love love love it!! There have been so many items in this box that have been perfect for my particular hobbies and interests, and here is another one. I am a snail-mailer, a penpal, a lover of letter writing, of receiving and sending post, and as a result, of pretty letter paper!! I think this set is just gorgeous, everything from the designs of the paper, to the lovely pastel shades of the envelopes, plus the most adorable sticker seals ever! It's so tough to choose which of the letter sheets I prefer, but oh my gosh, do I love that bunting one! The only downside to this item, well not a downside really, but I wish it was bigger. It's a mini letter set, which is fine but I prefer A5-ish sized paper because I write a lot and my hand-writing isn't as neat and small as I wish it was! I wish there was more of each sheet & envelope too because I almost don't want to use this letter set, and if there was more I could be persuaded to give away some in my snailmail. 

Pusheen Box Spring 2018

Seriously, how sweet are these little gold Pusheens!? The item above is just listed as 'Pusheen clips' on the little information postcard that you get inside your box. What it actually is, is a sort of chain banner along which are all of these pusheen clips, that you can use to hang up photographs or whatever else you want display on the wall. As adorable as this item is, it's not actually something that I can see myself using. I'm much more a fan of the rope photo banner thingies. The annoying thing about this item is what the clips make it quite weighty so it's not something that you are going to be able to attach to the wall with tape or blue-tac. There is a metal ring at either end of the chain that you can hang up on a little nail/hook. Another annoying thing is that my item actually arrived broken! When I attempted to take it off the card you can see above, I found that the other end of the chain with the hoop on the end was unattached :( Luckily because it's made of chain, I could use some pliers to re-attach the links, which is good because I'm probably going to give this to a friend :) 

Pusheen Box Spring 2018

I know I'm freakin' out about every item in this box guys, hahaha... but LOOK. AT. IT!!! I am in love with this design! How flippin' cute is Pusheen though!? I can't stop AWWWW'ing aloud whenever I look at this blanket!! Looking at the photo above is actually making it fairly tough to concentrate on writing now XD So what do I love about this item: everything. I love the pastel colours, I love huge Pusheen, I love that the design chosen matches the theme of the box with the celebratory balloons, I love the main colour of the blanket (I am such a fan of this colour!), but most of all, I love how soft the material is. It feels amazing, oh and it's awesome that this blanket is thin so it's perfect for all year round! I don't hate the grid pattern on this blanket but I personally think the design would look better without it. How about you? Are you a fan of grid patterns? It just reminds me of Maths at school, and omg I suck at that! All in all though, it's a 10/10 for me on this throw blanket! 

Pusheen Box Spring 2018

Please ignore the delightful scars on my right foot... this is what happens when you are clumsy and you walk around with bare feet 90% of your life, oops! Annoying unphotogenic foot aside, these slippers are super cute! Unfortunately, I personally have really never liked this style of slipper, that you just slip your foot into (well obviously :D). I trip over my feet all of the time, so I prefer a slipper that isn't going to make it even easier for me to do this, when they're slipping on and off my feet whenever I walk. Also to make the slippers cater for several shoe sizes, Pusheen Box has opted to offer size ranges, rather than individual sizes, if that makes sense. So these are a Small and they fit any size from a 4-6 or something like that, and I've found that they are actually too big for my feet. I'm never going to use them, so if any of my friends reading this want them, please let me know :) Still, they are a great quality item and the material inside them is cosy. I love that they have included little ears in the design too!

Pusheen Box Spring 2018

Okay, I'm really sad about this item, and to be honest, it is one of the reasons I didn't immediately blog all about this box when I first received my Spring edition Pusheen Box. You can't really tell on this photo, but I've taken a close up to show you after I've explained! Basically, my water bottle arrived with a huge scratch through the design, so that obviously ruins it :( I cannot tell if this was product of the bottle moving around inside the box during transport, but in my opinion, this wasn't really possible because of how packed in everything was, there wasn't much room for the items to move around really, albeit there was a little more free space than there usually is. But I seriously think that someone packed the item into my box without having quality-checked it first, and that is really not on, especially when you are paying a lot for the subscription! I was absolutely gutted about this damage, because this item would have literally been my joint favourite item, along with the letter set. I just adore it so much! :( I love the colour, the design, the shape, the patterns on the balloons, the little gold bow tied around Pusheen, the fact that it's made of stainless steel. Ugh, I'm so disappointed. 

Pusheen Box Spring 2018

It's hard to see the scratches clearly because of how bright the room was when I was taking my photos, but you can see it enough :( Although it's not a huge scratch and I can still use the item, it's just not acceptable to receive items like this. I emailed CultureFly about getting a replacement item, but they told me that there were none left in their warehouse, and it's silly to me that a company wouldn't make a few extras to deal with these sorts of problems. However they did offer me a $7 refund, which I think is pretty low for the quality of this item, which I could see being sold for anything between £15-20, but taking into account that it was part of a subscription box, I guess I'm happy that I got some sort of refund. I'm still going to use this item because the scratch is only noticeable close up and I'm not going to waste such an adorable bottle, that's perfect for keeping drinks cold in the hot months. I hope this sort of thing doesn't happen again because up until this point, Pusheen Box have been spot on with their quality and packaging, and I've never had a damaged item before this box, where I suddenly get two 'faulty' items!!

Pusheen Box Spring 2018

Pusheen Box Spring 2018

I'm always impressed how Pusheen Box keep coming up with new and unique ideas for their box themes, and especially for the designs of their matching vinyl figures. Every box comes with a figure, and as a toy/figure collector, I am a big fan! This time, they have gone for a celebratory themed figure, complete with balloons to fit in with the design of the other items in the box. It is giving me birthday vibes, and I totally wish that I'd have shared this post before my birthday so that I could have used this figure in my social media posts! My favourite feature of this figure is the super colourful balloons. I like that they are so bright and eye-catching, and it just makes the figure very cheerful to look at. I do like the pink base, but then again, I think it would have been better for them to go with another colour since there's already a pink balloon, and more colours are always better! I also wish that the 'strings' of the balloons weren't covering Pusheen's eye because it bugs me a little whenever I notice it. Anyway, this is another fantastic figure and can't wait to display it on a shelf along with the ones I've gotten in my previous boxes. So cute! 

Pusheen Box Spring 2018

So that was the Spring 2018 Pusheen Box! It was another fabulous box and it's always a delight to receive, despite having to pay customs fees each time T_T *cry cry*. Each edition comes with the most lovely items, that are always useful and very much tailored for adults, which is great! Even though I got a few damages inside my box this month, I would still recommend it to anyone who loves cats or just cute things in general! I think the box has something to suit every taste, and I can't imagine anyone who is a lover of adorable things being unhappy with it's contents. My favourite thing about the Pusheen Box is the colour schemes and how, for the most part, the items are designed in pastel shades. I'd love to hear all about what you guys think of the items in this box in the comments :) I'll also be sharing my Summer Pusheen Box later this month, so keep a look out for that. Apologies again that it's taken me so long!

Thankyou for reading!

What do you think of the theme of this box?

Do you have a favourite and a least favourite item? 

If you loved this post, why not check out some of my previous boxes:


Tuesday, 11 September 2018

Thankyou ♥

Hi lovelies! Today's post is potentially going to be a bit of an informal, rambley kind but we'll see how it turns out once I get into it, haha. If you follow me on Twitter, then you may have seen my tweets yesterday, about the fact that it marked my 3rd blogiversary and that also it happened to be a day when my mental health left me in a pretty shitty state of mind. Without sugar-coating things, last week was sort of a blur for me. Living with depression is often associated with feeling sad all the time, and whilst there are definitely moments like that, it's not really talked about how the mental illness can make you feel numb, like you are sort of just existing in what I can only describe as a world of nothingness. With that comes all sorts of feelings of guilt, etc... like why do I feel empty when 'this' happens, or why do I not feel happy right now when 'that' has taken place? I use this and that in my description because there are just so many examples, when you feel like you are supposed to have, for instance, a happy feeling but instead, you don't feel anything and are left thinking you are, for lack of a better word, broken....

Well my life for the last week or so has been like that, and with this comes all sorts of feelings of confusion, anger, guilt, but because you're not really able to emotionally work through these feelings, they are kind of repressed and once you start to get back into a ''normal'' head space, the feelings all hit you at once, it just makes life extremely overwhelming. Yesterday was like this for me and it was exhausting and all-consuming and bleak, and I wasn't in the right frame of mind to feel like celebrating. Then on top of that, I had a lot of negative thoughts about my blog, insecurities were surfacing that I'm sure all bloggers have from time-to-time, but given the way I was feeling anyway, I was just obsessing over these insecurities continuously throughout the day. I was wondering why people read my blog when I feel like it's such a mess... well, I feel like it's been poor quality this year, I don't really know how to sum up my feelings in one sentence, so bare with me XD

Thankyou for reading my blog!

I feel like I mention it a lot and I worry that people will get bored of hearing it, but this year has been so hard for me. Just when I felt like I was starting to make some progress with my mental health ''recovery'', I went through so much emotional turmoil that made me feel like I was back at square one again. It was a challenge to try and hold myself together. 2018 brought with it so many tough things to deal with, like my mom being ill (I don't feel like I'm in the right frame of mind to talk about it right now, but you can read more here), and another stressful situation involving family that I don't feel is my place to talk about online. As a result of the stress from everything going on, my mental illnesses were very much affected and in turn, my physical health conditions flared up, which of course put further strain on my mental health. I was in a cycle of physical and psychological pain and not really sure how to do anything about it. I felt powerless and lost, and trying to maintain a level of normalcy in my everyday life was proving more and more difficult. 

I was putting a lot of pressure on myself to try to carry on like I wasn't going through all of this, and when I couldn't do the things I usually did, I was beating myself up for it. I was trying to force myself to do things, and then this took much of the joy away from things that I used to find so fun. One of the hardest symptoms of depression is that it takes away your passion for things, they aren't as enjoyable anymore and you desperately try to ignite the love you felt for it, and it's devastating when you don't know if you'll feel it again. Sure, there are occasions when you feel truly happy but at the same time, the emotions often feel somehow muted, not as intense as they once were, and it really sucks! Sorry guys, this post is probably so miserable to read but I just felt compelled to let it all out, to share it with you all 

In my struggles, I stopped taking my anti-depressants because I just felt like they were doing nothing to help me, when I should have instead talked to my doctor about increasing the dosage, but my anxiety had gotten to the stage where I wanted to avoid all social situations that I find difficult enough as it is. I also felt like my local mental health services pretty much abandoned me, but maybe I'll talk about that another time. Nothing seemed to be going right in my life. I stopped being able to function properly; I didn't want to look after myself and I was finding it hard to put on a happy face around people. Things were only getting worse the more I kept trying to carry on with things whilst having no treatment for my mental health. I was struggling to keep myself out of self-destructive mindsets, which were telling me to just give up on everything I had worked so hard at and poured so much heart into, and one of these was blogging.

Thank you card from Whale and Bird

I love blogging! Having my blog has been so helpful for me over these last few years. When I was in a really bad place with my mental health after graduating from university and moving back home, I started my blog as a creative outlet, as a place for me to express myself and to write about all of the things that made me happy. I wanted to focus on the little things in life that brought me joy, and my blog become my little happy place. I was (and still very much am) delighted when other people started to read and comment on my posts and find joy in the same things that I did. I have met so many wonderful new friends through blogging and I love you all so much :) I feel like this year, I have really sucked at showing it though! I struggle with social interaction enough as it is, but with the way I've been feeling, I have just neglected so many things. Of course, this is not because I wanted to, I have just felt so much lack of control over my own life; I don't know how to express fully what it has felt like to be honest. Regardless, I have tried so hard to motivate myself and on a good day, I am glad that I have been able to get a blog post up. On a bad day though, which not to be dramatic but have literally taken up most of my year, I have not been able to find the motivation, the drive, the energy, whatever it is, to do it. No matter how much I have wanted to, despite having so many ideas in my head, I just cannot find the words, or more accurately I cannot find the passion to put it down on paper so to speak (put it down on... laptop, doesn't have quite the same ring to it :D haha!). 

Whenever my head is filled with the negative feelings I have about my blog, I always think about my lack of posts this year. I am forever questioning the quality of my writing or if it reads interesting or my personality shines through in my words, but I imagine that most bloggers feel like that once they have hit the publish button. For me, when I look at how many posts I've shared in my previous two years of blogging, and see all the content that I can look back on and be proud of, I feel good about my little space on the internet. It's not that I focus on quantity over quality or anything like that, but I like to look at my blog almost like an photo album or a diary, it lays out for me so many of the occasions in my life that I enjoyed enough to want to share with the world. It is lovely being able to look back through these happy times whenever I am feeling blue, but because I haven't been blogging in the same way this year, I don't get to do that. I know that there's still lots of posts, but for me it's almost like a diary with some of the pages torn out... 

I'm probably not making my blog sound like it's worth reading much in this post *insert several shy face monkey emojis here*. Oops, but now that I've probably embarrassed myself, I wanted to say the things that were my inspiration for this post in the first place. And that's thankyou. I wanted to give a huge thankyou to every single one of you that have stuck by me and my blog this year, despite the fact that I'm not as active online anymore and I barely share any posts. It means so much to me that you still tag me in your posts, and mention me in Friday Follows over on Twitter, that you all still remain my friends even though I am not around as much as I would like to be. All of these things, no matter how insignificant they may seem to some, have been very important for me, because they have kept me going with my blog when I felt like I should just give up with it. On some of my lowest days when I've felt like I was... forgettable, it has reminded me that there are people that actually like me :D I feel so shy writing this down (eeek!). So I just wanted to explain what's been going on with me, and maybe help someone else with similar thoughts and feelings know that they are not alone in their struggles. I am working my hardest to get things back on track with my blog and my life in general, and I am starting to see little improvements as I go. But yeah thanks for baring with me and for making it through reading this post. I cannot say thankyou enough and I will keep saying it if I continue writing, so it might be a good point to end it here XD haha. Happy three years to my blog and happy three years of knowing all of my awesome followers and friends! You guys make it special for me, you are all stars :) Here's to three more years of putting up with me! 

Thankyou for reading! 
(There I go again :p)

Also if you have a favourite thing about my blog or a favourite blog post/ type of blog post or anything like that, and you wanna share that with me, please let me know in the comments :) 

Blog Design Created by pipdig